I only trust me

Hidden I am
And hidden I shall remain
Hidden from the world
All its tumultuous pain
Hidden from the friends
Who are foes underneath
Wolves in sheep’s clothing
Their intentions discreet
Hidden from the liars
Who never mean what they state
I’ll make sure that my heart
They never manipulate
Hidden within my shell
They will do me no harm
Heart buried deep beneath my armour
No need to be alarmed
But how lonely it does get
When you hide who you are
For the sweetness of companionship
Is so very far
But maybe that’s better
From their oncoming pain I’m free
I’ll remain by myself
At least that way I’m sure the only pain …comes from me

Note to self

Lick your wounds

Get back up

You’re better than this

And you’re better than him

How did you allow things to get this far

How could allow yourself to fall this hard

You always knew it was temporary

You were temporary

You always knew he was full of shit

Bt yet you handed him your heart anyway

Like an innocent fool,

you gave him what you guarded so obsessively

You gave him what nobody is even allowed to see

And he touched it

And caressed it

And kissed it

And he made it feel like it was on the sweetest fire …one that warmed your cold core and surged through your body

Breaking every barrier you’ve ever built

Until touching turned into stabbing

And kissing turned into biting

That fire soon peeled away at all of your layers…..leaving you bare and exposed…and rejected

You gave him what you showed no one

And he kicked it

He didn’t care about its beauty

About the intensity that hid within

You knew this would have happened

But you can’t help who you fall for

Can you?

2:13am

Its 2:13am

I lay on my bed

So overcome with desire,

I can feel your lips on mine

Your palm running against my inner thigh

Making its way to the soft flesh on my chest

Touching me everywhere in between

Your tongue in my mouth, hungrily taking whats slowly becoming yours

And only yours

The taste of you fulfilling my needs but making me want you even more

You pull me closer and its not enough

I wrap my thighs around you and feel you growing

Your grinding into me now

Sending ripples of desire through my body

And it feels so good

And I like it

And I like you

And I want you

Its 2:13am

And i lay on bed

…………..Alone