The Big Dreamer

Be the Change You want to see in the World

I only trust me

Hidden I am
And hidden I shall remain
Hidden from the world
All its tumultuous pain
Hidden from the friends
Who are foes underneath
Wolves in sheep’s clothing
Their intentions discreet
Hidden from the liars
Who never mean what they state
I’ll make sure that my heart
They never manipulate
Hidden within my shell
They will do me no harm
Heart buried deep beneath my armour
No need to be alarmed
But how lonely it does get
When you hide who you are
For the sweetness of companionship
Is so very far
But maybe that’s better
From their oncoming pain I’m free
I’ll remain by myself
At least that way I’m sure the only pain …comes from me

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Note to self

Lick your wounds

Get back up

You’re better than this

And you’re better than him

How did you allow things to get this far

How could allow yourself to fall this hard

You always knew it was temporary

You were temporary

You always knew he was full of shit

Bt yet you handed him your heart anyway

Like an innocent fool,

you gave him what you guarded so obsessively

You gave him what nobody is even allowed to see

And he touched it

And caressed it

And kissed it

And he made it feel like it was on the sweetest fire …one that warmed your cold core and surged through your body

Breaking every barrier you’ve ever built

Until touching turned into stabbing

And kissing turned into biting

That fire soon peeled away at all of your layers…..leaving you bare and exposed…and rejected

You gave him what you showed no one

And he kicked it

He didn’t care about its beauty

About the intensity that hid within

You knew this would have happened

But you can’t help who you fall for

Can you?

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2:13am

Its 2:13am

I lay on my bed

So overcome with desire,

I can feel your lips on mine

Your palm running against my inner thigh

Making its way to the soft flesh on my chest

Touching me everywhere in between

Your tongue in my mouth, hungrily taking whats slowly becoming yours

And only yours

The taste of you fulfilling my needs but making me want you even more

You pull me closer and its not enough

I wrap my thighs around you and feel you growing

Your grinding into me now

SendingĀ ripples of desire through my body

And it feels so good

And I like it

And I like you

And I want you

Its 2:13am

And i lay on bed

…………..Alone

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Stranger on the Greens

I feel as though you’re what I’ve been searching for

Those eyes send to me, messages from your sub-conscience

Telling me,

that you speak the language of my soul

But I may never know you

A pinch of courage and a dash of confidence

is all that is needed

From me, as well as from you

For your eyes tell me, that you feel this way too

That you yearn to know the identity behind my smile

and to render yourself to the passion that ignites…..

when our eyes do happen to meet

That brief moment turns into an eternity of longing stares

Longing to know you…..longing to know me

All we need is a dash of courage and a pinch of confidence

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Battle of the Heart

I want someone to share my dreams

Someone whose eyes can see right through me,

Someone who would notice the things that bring me sorrow and joy,

Someone who can see the real me,

though out all the noise.

Because the real me,

she’s really scared.

She thinks no one out here really cares

Sad thing is,

they prove her right everyday.

For where are the ones who promised to stay?

Where are the ones who promised to stand by me?

The ones who promised to always be there?

Did they grow tired and decide not the stay?

Or was it just me….that pushed them away

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Unfinished Business……..

You have surpassed them all

You…

have reached into the depths of me,

invaded my heart

and caressed my soul.

You spoke unto me and soothed my being,

with a connection so powerful,

that a part of me will be

Forever yours.

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